Metacognition: Q and E Essay

As I was writing the first section of this essay, I noticed something unusual about my thought process that I haven't really caught before. I noticed that instead of writing exactly what I was thinking at the time, I realized that I was trying to write what I would expect that the person reading this essay would want to hear. This was really shocking to notice because I had never thought that I was the type of person who would be a "people pleaser", so to speak. I'm not sure if everyone does this when they are writing, but I'm almost positive that everyone does this when they speaking to someone. People usually say what other people would want to hear and not what they actually think or want to say. They keep their opinions and thoughts to themselves and whether it is because they are scared of denial or because it is just human nature I'm not sure. What I am sure of though, is the fact that I was doing this as I was writing.
Now obviously this way of writing/thinking is not effective because for one, it doesn't really represent my voice on an issue. Also, it isn't very effective because it doesn't necessarily allow me to go deeper into my thinking and write down something that is actually worth reading. However, lucky for me I caught myself before I got even deeper into my writing. As soon as I noticed it, I went back and edited things so that they reflected exactly how I felt and what I wanted to say.
Since I now know this, I can finally apply it to all other writing that I will be doing in any class. When writing in the future, I will try as best I can to just express myself and my thoughts in a piece of writing that reflects exactly what I feel. Once I come up with a good thought, I can finally let my mind wonder and create deeper analytical thoughts which will in turn create an effective piece of writing.
Even though this "people pleaser" thought process is an area that I would like to work on , and have started to work on shortly after realizing it, there is one thing about my thought process that I love. I love the fact that I can come up with random thoughts about the past and the present that make no sense and are in no way related and then somehow link them together. For example, in this essay, I was listening to Pink Floyd while I was trying to write an opener for my question. Suddenly, my mind drifted and caught the lyrics "We don't need no education/We don't need no thoughts controlled" and from these two fragments I found myself a story. I linked an anecdote that I experienced in the past to a thought that I was currently having the present. This to me, being able to relate things from the past to the present is really interesting and really important to me because it is how my mind works. Most of the thoughts that I have everyday are basically comparisons between the past and present and I find this to be the coolest thing ever.